Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Of Fear, Love, And Trivial Things

Happy Tuesday, everyone! I have been off work today for a bunch of appointments; the highlight of the day, maybe even the week so far, was having a little breakfast date with the hubby. The kids were in kindergarten and the two of us had some time before our first appointment, so we sat down in a little cafe and had breakfast together, loved it!

This brings me right to the point of today's cue at Jenni's Blog Every Day in May blog challenge: The thing(s) I'm most afraid of.

It might sound stupid and worn off, but my greatest fear in life is anything happening to my family. Richard is the love of my life, my partner, my rock, and my friend. And the girls.. There aren't no words to describe my love for them. They are truly a part of me and I couldn't imagine a single day without them. There was a n incident when I almost lost our oldest, Lily. It was the worst experience of my life, and it would break me losing any one of those three. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes, because the pain is just so unbearable just to think about it.

I'm also afraid of not being able to always provide for them. I'm a planner, and if variables are involved that I have no control over, I panic. I know that most of the time, my fear is mostly unfounded, but I love my family so much, I always want to be able to take care of them.

On a more trivial note, I'm afraid of:
- cockroaches and large spiders
- hights
- white sharks
- the dark after I've watched a scary movie
- tornadoes, but only after I've seen one coming right at us in Manhattan, KS in 2008; the baby destroyed
  parts of town, but luckily missed us (had no shelter).



  1. Yes I hate the dark after a scary movie, even if I'm not home alone. So creepy!

    1. I remember reading "The Exorcist", I think I was about 15 or so.. I just wanted to finish this one chapter before turning in for the night.. Well, this chapter ended on an extremely scary note and I had to switch on all the lights in the house on my way to the bathroom.. Usually, I'm not afraid of the dark, but scary movies or books get to me ;-)

  2. I don't think your fear is stupid at all, and I think anyone who loves their family has that fear. Not a hand wringing, keep me up at night kind of thing, but just a notion that the loss of any one of them would be devastating. And it's not just us chicks. My husband told me the other day he dreamed that the girls and I had fallen off a steep cliff and he couldn't do anything to stop it. He had to get out of bed because he couldn't sleep after that. Love. It's a powerful drug.

    1. Your poor hubby! But it's still so sweet of him.. While I really feel that way and don't think it's stupid, I simply guessed that most people would write about the fear of losing their loved ones. This is probably one of the things that unites us all..